I'm sure some if this is because my cat is sick, and I can't know what to expect from moment to moment, but I can't help but feel that the only constant in my life these days seems to be change.
I've never been very good at routine - I think partially because I chafe against the idea of being locked into any particular schedule or system. But it also seems true that as soon as I manage to establish some sort of system for doing things, something will change and the entire thing goes off kilter.
And it's not just the big stuff like people or pets dying... I find this to be true with virtually all aspects of my life. I'll finally come to a place where the kitchen is clean and uncluttered, and then the seasons will change and I'll go from salads to soups, and suddenly my system doesn't work anymore.
Or I finally get my closet and drawers arranged so that everything has a home, and then I buy a road bike and suddenly need a place for all sorts of cycling clothes, and I'm back to having piles of homeless clothes everywhere because there's no room.
Or I try to establish a regular schedule, but then the cat has an "issue" in the middle of the night and I'm up all night taking care of him and everything is thrown off for days to come.
Somehow, I always feel like this is evidence of some sort of failure on my part. Why can't I just find a system that works and stick to it? But really... should I blame myself because the seasons change, or my life evolves in one way or another? Perhaps I simply have unrealistic expectations in regards to the longevity of my organizing and scheduling schemes.
Part of me feels like I should be making some sort of New Year's resolution to make better systems, or do a better job forcing myself to stick with a routine, but honestly it seems like a pointless endeavor.
I mean, if everything was static, and each day was the same as the last, then what would the point be?
So how do you organized types deal with the inevitability of change? Do you just buckle down and stick to your guns, or do you create new systems all the time? I can't be the only person who struggles with this sort of thing. Seriously, I'd really love to hear how y'all manage this one.